Then Came, The Lost of Friends

Then Came, The Lost of Friends



One, might add, what else could go wrong, and yes, I spoke too soon.  Never in a million years, did I think I would be that person sitting on the other side ... All this shit would happen around this same time others things in life where going in and everything seemed as it was just spiraling down hill for me. And all within a span of 12 months.  What did I do wrong, who did I pissed off, I asked that question over and over again. Was it karma hitting me all at once? But, I tend to live right and treat others, as I would want to be treated.

So that being said, I have always considered myself the most friendly person a person would ever meet. I never judged a book by its cover.  I would be that person, if you need a money, a place to crash and or food, I would, knocking over walls to make it happen. Granted, I don't have much, but I was raised to always lead a hand, no matter what a  situation was.

There came that time, where I had to test my friendship and loyalty with those I thought were my friends. People I truly loved and cared for in the entire world.  

This blog entry would and has become  the second or third most difficult thing Ive had to share, with you.  However as my counselor/shrink said, I have to get these things off my chest and out onto the world for me to MoveOn, and she's fucking right. Once review my notes, and or personal journal, and went from draft to publishing entry on to blog,  I felt this huge relief that, it's OK ... weird right. 

I quite didn't understand and still am puzzled about the feeling, of feeling OK, about the people that I know, I was OK just letting go. And the test that I was tested to do, to test the loyalty of my friendship, was all and is quite much. As strange as all this sounds, it makes sense  logically and very saddened and disappointed with the outcome of it. 

That's life and I guess I have to reference

"It is, what it is" 

As I blog this and sit here, I shed the last tear on the subject.  Life goes on, and I am calling it to me, as a friend says from work, I WILL meet new friends. And the most excited thing I WILL start with coming back from my 2015 trip, as a different young men, a young adult, and ready to take life on. 

To be cont...